December 11, 2007

Tonight DH told me thought I should take the drugs that doc prescribed, but I just don't feel like it would be safe to William for me to try them. Alot of those drugs have not been tested as far as seeing their effects on the child and I can't imagine putting that in my body, not knowing how it would affect William.

I know once we get the jaundice and feeding issues under control that things will settle down better, its just an adjustment period we are going through.

I LOVE how a friend described PG as the season of Christmas. It is just that. I guess for me, Christmas came sooner then expected and I also wish I still had that time alone with him that I feel was stripped from us so unexpectedly. It made me feel that what I am going through is completely normal. My Mom and Jason seem to make me feel crazy or out of control for all the emotions I have been going through and feeling, and sometimes it really feels as if no one understands or gets it.

Well today we had our doctor's appointment. His weight went up from 6 pounds 2 ounces (on Friday), to 6 pounds 5 ounces!! YAY!!! He is also now 19.75" long (19" at birth). She also said that he is showing signs of the jaundice is starting to leave his system. She says you can see that in his legs its not there, but then showed us how it is still in his chest. That was encouraging to see that. I love my doctor. She also took the time to spend with us and had me try to breastfeed William in the office to see what was going on. She gave some great pointers, and wants us to try to do these tips (Jason helping) 3-4 times a day, and thinks that within the week that we could be breastfeeding soley!!! She was really encouraging and it made me feel better about our changes of soley breastfeeding. She tells you straight about everything, and said I was not blessed with the best breasts, but that she doesn't forsee any reason why we won't be able to breastfeed. YAY!!! I also was concerned about my breastmilk supply and so she prescribe reglan to up my supply of milk.

William has been more alert today. He also has been taking in more milk within the last 24 hours. So we are really encouraged about all this.